I have just rediscovered blogging after an accidental 3 years off. I have decided to start from scratch along with the arrival of 2017. My name is Beckie, I'm 25 and from Leicestershire.
The main reason I wanted to start blogging again was to share my experiences with other like minded souls. If I'm able to, I hope that maybe I could make someone feel a little bit less weird, or know that it's completely okay to not be engaged and having babies when it seems like everyone around you is doing just that, and your main concern is what to order from Dominos..
Well that's a regular occurrence in my life anyway!
2016 was an interesting year for me personally. Focusing on the positives: I got to travel to Florida and enjoy Disneyworld TWICE in one year, had an amazing adventure in New York with my best friend, had the most successful competitive year with my Dance School and won my first Teacher's Trophy. I am blessed to be surrounded by an amazing family, I absolutely love my job & have come so far with my business.
And for those of you that may think my life is all unicorns and glitter (which it is most of the time) I'm going to discuss some of the personal struggles I faced in 2016.
For the first time in my life I had what I am calling a 'cloudy patch' which led to me experience a nervous breakdown. This is something I have never discussed publicly, or even with my closest friends. As I am writing this I am remembering just how alone, helpless and useless I felt.
So why am I sharing this with you? Because, I want anyone who is reading this that is going through the same thing to know that the sun will come out again, even if it takes a bit of time to break through the clouds. I had become so deeply overwhelmed with my work life, my relationship, break down of friendships and so many small things I just felt like I couldn't do it anymore. For so long I had ignored how I was feeling and just kept putting on a brave face and carrying on, but if you start to feel like everything is becoming too much - listen to yourself and address it! Easier said than done, I know but I learnt that the hard way, oops. Mental health is something that is hugely overlooked in today's society, and prior to last year I had only ever experienced anxiety, which is something that has less of a stigma as it is much more common and openly discussed. I remember being so frustrated during my 'cloudy patch' that I wasn't happy & thankful, as I had so many good things in my life. Part of finding myself again was learning to accept that sometimes there aren't explanations for how you feel, and it isn't possible to just 'snap out of it'. I am grateful that in the grand scheme of things this was just a little blip in my life and I now know what to focus on to prevent it happening in the future.
Fortunately for me, my parents are the most incredible human beings on the planet in my eyes. They helped me every single day to focus on the positives, their patience and kindness and understanding helped me get back to being me.
For those of you that know me would know I am a very happy, positive and bright person 99.9% with a passion for life, and I am thankful that I am able to say I am back to being that person as we welcome 2017.
So going into 2017 I have a set of goals that I am going to focus all my time and energy into, and also taking the time to focus on myself and trying to never go back to the mindset I experienced last year.
I will be doing a blog post on my goals & plans for 2017, I never stick to resolutions but I feel if I share my dreams with you by writing them down, it might give me a kick up the arse to crack on and achieve them!
I plan to be honest & open with these posts. Right now I am a single 25 year old, surrounded by people who are getting married and having babies, which is great. Instead of letting this make you feel inadequate (we've all been there) focus on you! I'm choosing to enjoy this 'me time' by going on nice holidays & travelling to new places, dating, building up my business & enjoying having lie ins. It doesn't mean that we don't all have off days too where you go through the whole 'why isn't that me?!' So I'll be covering those days as well!
If you had a crap 2016, I hope 2017 brings you new happiness, and if your 2016 was great, I hope 2017 is even better!
I'd love to know what your New Years resolutions are, and I hope you enjoyed reading this and that it wasn't too much for my first post 🙈.
Over and out,
Bloss x
